"God is within her, she will not fail." Psalm 46:5
Have you ever watched a dream, just slip away…
Dusk into dawn, night into day.
Have you ever had a vision, vanish into thin air…
Smile all the while, pretend you don’t care.
Have you ever felt the shatter of a desire so deep…
Long nights you weep, the secrets you keep.
Have you ever?
A new dream. A new vision. A brand new day…
Head bowed, eyes closed, begin to pray…
Oh please, Oh please, please don’t let it slip away.
My phone dinged again. I looked down at it just in time to see the notification for a new comment disappear and be replaced with another. I smiled. Our YouTube family. A huge unit comprised of mothers, fathers, sisters, brothers, aunts, uncles, cousins and more…from all over the world. Standing in our corner. It was amazing. It was inspiring…
I was worried and I was scared. I wanted to reach out to our online family to let them know what was going on. They had become a big part of our lives and we shared many aspects of it with them. Many had already started to ask questions. I wanted to include them in this huge moment.
I stared at my phone in my hand and almost changed my mind. My finger shakily pressed the button before I did. In a moment, I would be live. Who would see this? I had no clue. I tried to pull myself together as people started to appear. Someone asked ‘What’s wrong Sierra?’ and I lost it. Tears caught me by surprise as they spilled from both eyes.
I became angry at myself. I was here for a reason. To inform them of what was going on. I could barely get the words out. ‘Sean has been deployed.’ I said it through tears. I felt so vulnerable, but these people loved us so much. They were our family. The outpouring of support was almost immediate. I confided in them. Talking slowly and covering one point at a time. I told them as much as I could without compromising the safety of my husband and his unit. I asked for prayers. I wanted all the prayers that I could get and I smiled as they started sending them immediately. It felt as if a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. There was power in prayer. There was safety in numbers. Suddenly, I didn’t feel so alone.
The comments came in from everywhere. One behind the other. Heartfelt messages filled with concern flooded our DMs. I felt so much love. I wrote down every scripture. Agreed with every prayer. Accepted every well wish. I felt covered from all angles.
We now had an army standing in our corner.
I was so grateful. I am still so grateful. Some of my toughest times were in the beginning. Everything was a blur. Tensions were high. Heading into the unknown, we were all scared. ALL of us. I had my faith. I had my family. At the time, I didn’t realize that I had even more.
I love you guys so much.
From the bottom of my heart, Thank you.
SierraSweetheart 