I looked over at him and smiled, he smiled back and gave my hand a gentle squeeze. We had waited so long for this moment. An intimate little getaway for just the two of us. I gazed out of the window at the palm trees as I happily made plans in my head for the remainder of our trip. ‘We’ll visit the islands, have a romantic picnic…’ The sound of his phone pulled me from my thoughts. It was going off like crazy. I looked over at his face and the smile slowly faded from mine…
What seemed like a million fireworks rang out, beautifully illuminating the night sky. Through the window, I followed a glimpse of blue with my eyes until it disappeared over the lake, gone forever. I shifted my attention to you, trying to decipher the look on your face. Your eyes were focused on the task at hand. Jaw tight in concentration. You seemed to be lost in thought. What were you thinking? My eyes lingered for a moment.
Until you caught me looking at you.
Your features immediately softened. A smile crept across your lips. It was sad, almost apologetic as you asked me ‘You all packed, babe?’ I looked down at the bag in front me and didn’t recognize it as my own. The usually neatly folded, organized by color and style clothing had been quickly stacked and mixed amongst other belongings. ‘Yes baby,’ I said, unable to look back up at you. They were coming again. The tears. Holding them back took everything in me but I was determined.
Determined to be strong.
I needed you. Your country needed you more.
SierraSweetheart 
Hi Sierra, just reading your blog, with tears in my eyes I can safely say I know some of the feeling the only difference is some of the emotions were changed . I am a Military Mom and not a spouse., my only son. He is now on his first deployment in Korea and there is never a day that Idont think about my baby. I will be praying for us all and for the freedom of this country
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I can feel you Sierra. I can only imagine what it is like to be in your shoes and I admire military wives for their selflessness, supporting their husbands who work hard to keep their country safe. Praying for Sean’s safety out there in the field and for your comfort while he is away.
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