Three minutes. That’s all it was. Three minutes that felt like forever. I reached for the results with a shaky hand. This was crazy. Tiny little lines on a stick were about to determine my entire future…

I opened my eyes and looked down at Noelle. She had been staring at me intently, both ears standing straight up. ‘What are you doing silly girl?’ I watched and waited for a response. She hopped over to her food dish and gently pawed at it, letting me know she was ready to eat. I slowly sat up in bed just as the front door opened. ‘It’s me baby.’ My husband was back from his morning PT. As soon as she heard his voice, Noelle shot up the hallway to meet him. I laughed at how quickly she forgot that she was hungry.

I turned over in bed and watched as he kneeled down to catch her in his arms. His eyes caught mine and a smile crossed his lips. It wasn’t his usual one. There was something else there. Worry? Concern? He knew that if I was still in bed, there must be something wrong. I usually lived for meeting him at the door with breakfast.

I sat straight up in bed and gave a weak smile of my own as he headed towards me.

‘Are you feeling okay baby?’ His eyes were narrowed, inspecting me as he waited for my answer. Noelle, still in his arms, turned her head towards me as if she was waiting for a response as well. ‘Just a little tired baby but I’m fine.’ I gave him another weak smile as I positioned my body to climb out of bed. In one swift motion, his arm was gently holding me down. ‘No. Just rest baby.’ I was so tired. I didn’t resist. He filled her food dish and then sat next to the bed holding my hand until he had to leave again for work.

I must have fallen asleep like that because I woke up to complete silence.

Noelle was curled up in her bed, fast asleep with a happy tummy. I gently lowered my feet to the floor as the realizion hit me. I was expecting my cycle in a few days which was probably why I felt a bit fatigued.

Days went by and although the fatigue got better, my expected visitor never made an entrace. Knowing that my husband and I had started trying for a baby, I decided it was time to take a pregnancy test. Not wanting to ruin what would be a beautiful surprise, I picked a day and waited for him to head to work. He didn’t suspect a thing.

‘Have a good day at work babe.’ I gave him a kiss and closed the door. I basically skipped down the hallway towards my bathroom cabinet where I had neatly tucked away a special little box all the way in the back corner. I stopped to peek through the blinds, just to make sure he drove off and I was in the clear! It was time to find out! I grabbed my camera and tripod to document the memory and headed to the bathroom.

I pressed record on the camera and instantly started to sweat. Why was I so nervous??

My hands fumbled with the packaging as I went through the process for the first time. I carefully read the directions twice just to make sure I did everything perfectly. Then it was time. I stared at the bars loading one by one and patiently waited for the results to populate on the stick. As the last one loaded, I closed my eyes in anticipation. Everything around me went completely still and quiet. I slowly opened them to the words visible plain as day.

PREGNANT.

One hand flew to cover my mouth as I cradled my future with the other. ‘I’m pregnant.’ I said it again with tears in my eyes. The happiness I felt was indescribable. Noelle was staring at me intently as if she was saying congratulations in her own little way. It was time to tell my husband. We were about to embark on the journey of a lifetime and I couldn’t wait.

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